Happy Wedding Day :(

Today would have been my wedding day. Instead I am standing alone at HBC watching people get on with their SL lives.

My time with my friend watching over me came to an end. Our times in-world were just not matching up, so we agreed it would be best for me to be freed. We are still very close friends, and I love her dearly for trying to help me. I am feeling very empty this past week, it is amazing how we can put so much of our selves into this SL world we visit. I just seem to be stuck in a funk, both RL and SL.

So anyhow, I just needed to vent a little, I will end this pity party of a entry, and wish you all the very best life has to offer, be it RL or SL!

Bless you all

Sad, lonely, empty

Well, sometimes things are too good to be true. Lidia and I became engaged, but less than 3 weeks before our wedding things fell apart. I won't discuss the details in this blog, but if you read this and ask me in private I will explain things to you. I will say that I was deceived is all.

A dear friend has taken me under her wing in SL, I wear her collar and I will just see how things develop from here. I seem to be riding lots of different emotions lately, but I am beginning to feel that I am not worthy of being loved. So many have hurt me over the years, it is very depressing.

Anyway, I am trying to move on. I have forgiven Lidia for deceiving me, and we still talk a little. I am trying to make the best of SL, though it seems to bring tears to my eyes quite often these days. I still have many good friends in SL, I would hate to lose them, so I will stay with it for now. That's about all the news for now. If you do take time to read this, please let me know. Thank you all.